Recovering from Surgery

“Well, the surgery is done. The only thing to do now is recover.”, I thought to myself while staring at the ceiling in our bedroom. 

I had spent the better part of two days at UCSD having a radical prostatectomy to remove a cancerous prostate. Now I was laying in my bed at home, taking in the grandeur of our bedroom ceiling and contemplating life, or at least the next month or so of it.

“Well, I guess I better get up and get the day started.”

Getting out of bed required rolling back and forth until I could gain enough momentum to swing my legs out over the side of the bed while maneuvering around my catheter bag and hose.

“Are …. you okay?”, Jodie mumbled.

Whoops. Woke up the wife.

“Yeah, I just wanted to get up.”, I replied while looking at the catheter bag, “Although technically, with the catheter, I could lay here indefinitely…”

“… but then again, there is the eventual number two which the bag can’t …”, I continued.

“I’m up, too”, Jodie interrupted before I continued.

She rummaged around her nightstand a bit, got out of bed, and then walked around to present me with a small box.

“Ashley really wanted to give this to you yesterday, but with all the excitement she forgot.”, she said.

I opened the box, laughed, winced in pain, and pulled out a small, blue, smiling prostate.

“She thought you’d like it”, Jodie said, smiling.

“Oh, I do!”, I smiled back.

A replacement prostate
The clay prostate my daughter to replace the cancerous one removed during my radical prostatectomy. This one looks far happier than my own.

What follows is my account of what it is like to recover from having your manhood yanked out through your belly button, or as urologists like to call it, a radical prostatectomy. The recovery is humbling and far from easy. However, the humility and awkwardness of the recovery process resulted in some humorous moments which, fortunately, smoothed out the bumps.

Try not to laugh 

“One incision….two incisions… three incisions….four incisions…..and five. Five incisions!”, I said proudly to Kaylee who was hovering over me, her enormous pink cast dangling from her shoulder. It was now three days post-op and I was feeling brave enough to bare my belly now that the gas had subsided a little. 

My belly post prostatectomy.
Bloated, shaved, and bruised, this is what my belly looked like after my prostatectomy. For another twenty bucks I wonder if they would have shaved my chest, too.

“Hey! They missed a hair!”, I chuckled. 

In preparation for surgery my belly was shaved smooth –  except for a single solitary hair. Amusingly, the shearing stopped just below my chest leaving a thick mat of chest hair in stark contrast to the desolate plains below. Staring at it, I could only imagine how much it was all going to itch in a week or two.

“Look!”, I pulled up on it to show Jodie.

“Do you want me to shave it?”, she laughed.

“Ha ha ouch No! ouch Stop! OUCH!”, I laughed in pain.

Laughter might be the best medicine, but when you’re three days post-op the combination of bruising, incisions, and gas make it a painful endeavor. 

Ironically, Jodie and I had chosen Kaylee and my discharge to introduce our girls to The Simpsons, starting with Season One. The early episodes are absolutely hilarious – and excruciatingly painful. 

Eat your veggies

Almost a year ago I gave up meat, dairy, processed foods & refined sugars and switched over to a plant-based diet to help fight the symptoms of, what I would eventually find out, was prostate cancer. One of the less talked about benefits of being on a plant-based diet is that you’re seldom constipated.

Right. Where am I going with this? 

Well, my surgeon warned me that, after surgery, it could take upwards of a week to drop a deuce. While I was recovering at UCSD my nurse, Dan, even joked with me that bowel movements were cause for a celebration, or pizza party. When my kids were smaller I used to read them a child’s book titled, subtly, “Everyone Poops” that, through cute pictures, explained that bowel movements and their precursor, farting, were not-so-subtle signs that the digestive tract was working again. I wonder if my surgeon and nurse had read the same book?

I don’t want to brag but I cleared this particular hurdle in 4 days flat with flying colors. My advice to anyone preparing for surgery? Eat your veggies!

You’ll need to get crafty

A support patch was literally glued to my upper thigh during surgery to guide the hoses of my catheter bag. It didn’t take long for the adhesive to start failing to the point where the support was literally, and painfully, hanging by a few hairs. The support is not something that I wanted to fail, either; if it did I’d risk the full weight of the catheter bag pulling on my … well, yeah, you get it.

As such, five days after surgery was “Arts and Crafts Day”. Jodie helped me cobble together an assortment of medical tape, large band-aids, and alcohol pads. After multiple failed attempts I ended up MacGyver’ing the support back into place with moleskin and medical tape. Unfortunately, I had to reinforce my handiwork daily with more and more layers.

Later, when my catheter was being removed my nurse offered to remove the support, which was now buried under layer upon layer of tape. However, after eyeing the layers of adhesive, matted leg hair, and irritated skin I quickly stopped her.

“I’ll, uh. I’ll just take care of that home … I think…”, I told her.

The support, sans tubing, remained glued to my leg like a barnacle for more than a week after my catheter was removed before I gained the courage to rip it off. Yeah, it hurt. My daughters learned some new words that day, too.

Healing in Quarantine, with Kids

My discharge from the hospital coincided with the beginning of a state-wide Coronavirus quarantine, the closure of my daughters’ elementary school, and a powerful urge to re-admit myself to the sanctity of the hospital. Just a handful of days into recovery it was obvious that my daughter Kaylee, who had broken her elbow and also had surgery on the day of my surgery, was healing much faster than I was. 

“Kaylee, please be more careful so that we don’t have to go to the hospital again!”, Jodie said in a stern voice as Kaylee banged her cast against the wall.

“I’m a kid! Let me live my life!”, Kaylee yelled back with the hint of a smile.

Kaylee’s cast had become a battering ram. I could often hear her coming before I saw her as she dragged it along walls and bumped it into things. My sister-in-law, Jayme, sewed her a cool piggie sling, but she preferred to go without it. I felt sorry for her. There’s nothing worse than having a cast and none of your friends can get close enough to you to sign it. Kaylee, being Kaylee took it in stride. 

I’m No Superman

Originally I had planned to work during my recovery and not take any time off. It took me two weeks and the urging of my wife and friends before I realized how naive I was. Trying to work while recovering from surgery was ambitious; doing the same during a global pandemic while learning how to homeschool my kids was borderline insanity. It took a music video to finally convince me.  If you have cancer or a chronic disease and haven’t watched Jimmy Charles’ music video, Superman, you should. I applied for short term disability the next day.

Jimmy Charles, "Superman"
Jimmy Charles song, “Superman” made me realize that everyone needs help, even stubborn old me. Jimmy makes frequent appearances at Prostate Cancer events.

 

Recovering from surgery is hard, but good food and help makes it a lot easier. 

My wife is a genius in the kitchen, but even genius needs a break now and then. Fortunately, my sister-in-law, Jayme, set up a meal train to help my family and I with our recovery. To complicate the endeavor, Jodie and I eat only plant-based meals ( with the occasional sushi thrown in ). I was impressed by the number of families that took up the challenge and brought us home cooked meals.

When our friends weren’t bringing us meals, they were bringing us groceries. The Coronavirus had managed to turn the simple task of grocery shopping into an arduous and risky endeavor requiring masks, gloves, and space that neither Jodie nor I were willing to take on. Although we worked through the intricacies of Amazon Prime, it’s [lack of] Delivery Windows, and Food Shortages, it was our friends that kept our refrigerator full.

The Meal Train
Jayme organized a “meal train” to help Kaylee and I recover from our respective surgeries. A few time a week a different one of our friends delivered a meal to our house for dinner. I am incredibly grateful for their help.

The Uniball

My surgeon told me that to promote healing and reduce the risk of blood clots that I should get up and walk often, so I did. And, as standing proved to be more comfortable than sitting, I did a lot of that too. With my catheter bag in hand I would pace our backyard like a caged tiger, talk to my girls as they bounced ( Ashley ) or laid with her broken arm ( Kaylee ) on the trampoline, listen to Podcasts, and chat with friends and family on the phone. According to my iWatch I was walking over two miles a day and standing for eight after just three days of recovery. Good, right?

Probably not…

“So new development. Are swollen balls normal? I remember you said everything would be black and blue ….”, I texted to my friend, Pat, who had undergone the same surgery as me two years prior.

“TOTALLY swollen is normal”, Pat texted me back.

“This would be pretty hilarious if they weren’t, in fact, my balls.”, I replied.

“THAT is what I was talking about! I am 2 for 2 so far! The gas can’t even be explained and the swelling is grossly strange, but totally normal!” , Pat replied.

“Thank you for being there to share this awkwardly painful yet hilarious moment, Pat.”, I replied.

At this point my wife caught wind of our conversation and, wanting to help,  fired off a message of her own.

“Can he ice his balls?  Like after his vasectomy?  I keep offering him frozen peas but he doesn’t think it will help.”, Jodie asked.

“It’ll help a little – not a lot though. There is a lot of fluid that will dissipate over time.  It’ll probably take 1-3 days.”, Pat replied.

“In 1-3 days I’m pretty sure I’ll be able to sit on them like a pair of bean bags, Pat.”, I replied.

“Don’t sit on them.”, Pat replied.

“Lol. Alight, if you don’t hear from me tomorrow I rolled over in the night and they smothered me in my sleep. Thanks, Pat.”

Turns out having huge cajones isn’t manly at all – it’s just painful. Over the process of a week mine swelled into grapefruit-sized monstrosities and ultimately merged into one enormous uniball. It hung low, it swung to and fro, and it put me at the awkward crossroads of laughter, terror, and pain. Fortunately I found a jockstrap stuck to the back of my sock drawer. With a heave and a snap I managed to corral the beast. 

The Uniball
I experienced a “little” swelling after my radical prostatectomy.

I just need support

Around the same time that this was transpiring my sister-in-law, Jayme, sewed Kaylee a new sling to support her cast. The sling was made of fabric with tiny cute little pigs embroidered all over it. Kaylee, of course, loved it. Realizing that I also needed support, I fired off a quick text message to Jayme.

“Can you sew me a sling like the one you made Kaylee to support my ball?”, I asked Jayme.

“I could….”, she replied.

“He needs a soft cushion to elevate it.”, Jodie interrupted.

“Can you use this fabric so that it feels at home?”, I asked, sending her a picture of soft, luxurious, Chewbacca-like fur. 

Chewbacca Fur
My sister-in-law, Jayme, is a fantastic seamstress. However, although I pressed her to sew me a sling to support my swollen goods, she respectively declined.

“I can sew a soft pillow, yes. Just give me the required dimensions.”, Jayme replied

“My ball is approximately 13” in diameter.”, I responded while trying to maintain a straight face.

“Holy F**** Moly!”, Jayme replied.

Wardrobe Malfunction

I had just donned my bathrobe when Ashley sidled up next to me.

“Dad, why’s the floor wet?”. Ashley asked me.

“I dunno, maybe I spilled a little water?”, I replied, motioning to the half-full glass in my hand.

“It’s not your bag?”, she asked, eyeing the half-full catheter bag I had just hooked onto the pocket of my robe.

“Nope. I’m incredibly careful with it!”, I smiled, proudly.

She shrugged and headed downstairs for breakfast. I glanced at my catheter bag, reassured myself that everything was Kosher, and then for reasons unknown, decided to swing it around like a purse as I walked out of our carpeted bedroom.

Hmmmmmmm.

“The floor IS  wet”, I mumbled to myself.

It was then, after taking a closer look, that I realized that the little metal clip that secured the hose on the bag was unlatched.

Cursing, I grabbed some towels and carpet cleaner and started mopping up the sprinkles.

“Is everything okay up there?”, Jodie yelled from downstairs.

“YES! Great! Everything is great!”, I replied quickly.

After doing my best to clean up the evidence I made my way downstairs and into the kitchen for breakfast,

“Who wants waffles?!?”, I announced, attempting to put the mishap upstairs behind me.

“Yes!”, Ashley and Jodie replied enthusiastically from the adjoining family room.

“I don’t like waffles!”, Kaylee screamed..

“Waffles are just decorative pancakes, Kaylee. They’re made of exactly the same stuff!”, I replied as I started zipping around the kitchen, gathering ingredients.

“Yeeeeoow!”, I yelped in a shriek of terror.

“What! What?”, Jodie’s head whipped around from where she was sitting.

One of the hoses from my catheter bag had caught on a cabinet handle on the center island on which I was making waffles, causing a sharp and uncomfortable tug.

“Wardrobe malfunction!”, I winced, more in shock than in pain. After reassuring myself that everything was still attached I resumed making breakfast.

“Are you sure you don’t want me to make breakfast?”, Jodie, who was now standing next to me, asked.

“Yup, I just need to slow down. This thing is incredibly awkward and has hoses sticking out everywhere. I almost ripped off my …Uh”, I replied looking down at the girls who had joined us to see what the commotion was.

“What, dad? What happened …..”, they asked in unison.

Not ready for an impromptu “Sex Ed” I quickly extracted a waffle from the iron, cut in in half, and plopped the pieces down on a couple of plates. 

“Breakfast is ready!”, I interrupted, handing the plates to them.

Catheter Removal Fail

After almost two weeks my catheter was becoming increasingly uncomfortable. I was looking forward to getting it removed – and was profoundly disappointed when it wasn’t.

On the big day Jodie and I literally “plugged” the kids into their tablets and phones before racing to my appointment at UCSD. Our friend, Lora, volunteered to be our virtual babysitter; we set up a Zoom teleconference between her and the kids before leaving. 

As soon as I dropped my pants and my massive uniball erupted forth it was obvious this launch was going to be scrubbed.

“You have some pretty severe swelling”, the nurse said.

No shit.

The nurse was reluctant to remove my catheter. The swelling, he told me, could prevent me from being able to urinate and a new catheter would need to be inserted. I was under General Anesthesia when the first catheter was inserted and had no desire to experience the insertion of a second. 

“I thought the swelling might be a problem”, I admitted, discouraged.

“I considered photographing them for posterity, but decided against it. Weighing them was an option, too, but the only scale that would have been accurate enough would be our kitchen scale, and I’m not sure I’d ever be able to use it again for cooking if I did so.”, I attempted to joke.

Later, I would learn that my swelling was atypical due to the lymph node dissection performed by my surgeon. Because my scans had indicated that my cancer had spread outside my prostate into at least one lymph node, he had removed it along with about twenty others. The missing lymph nodes would normally drain the swelling. As the lymph nodes were now incognito, the nurse told me that it would take longer for the swelling to go down. He urged me to stay off my feet for the next few days and scheduled another appointment three days later to try again. 

I started pulling up my pants when the nurse stopped me.

“Uh … before you go, you’re scheduled for a Lupron shot, correct?”, he asked.

Rolling my eyes I sighed, “Yes”.

I dropped my pants again and waited for the inevitable shot to the butt.

The walk back to the car was brutal. Although the appointment left me disappointed and frustrated, I had developed severe chills and aches while waiting in the cold exam room. This was followed by chattering teeth, a headache, and by the time I was finally discharged, stiffness in my legs. Jodie lent me her jacket for warmth and her arm for support and we waddled, slowly, to the parking garage. 

“I was told to walk as much as I could!”, I told Jodie through chattering teeth as she turned on the heater and seat warmer, “I was told the missing lymph nodes wouldn’t be a problem.”

“Yeah, I know.”, she replied.

When we arrived back home we discovered that the girls hadn’t budged an inch. They were playing Minecraft on their tablets with their friends. 

“You’re back already?”, Kaylee shouted from her perch on the couch.

“We’ve been gone for three hours!”, Jodie and I said in unison.

“Have you guys even moved?”, I asked angrily while slowly making my way up the stairs. 

Man I felt like crap. The chills had now progressed into a pounding migraine. 

“I’m going to …. to take a nap, guys. I’ll be down in a little while.”, I said.

Shivering, I flopped into bed, pulled as many blankets on top of me as I could, turned the electric blanket up to 11, and quickly fell asleep. Over the next few hours my chills turned to fever, then back to chills, and finally, mercifully disappeared altogether.

There will be good days, and there will be bad days. 

“Yesterday”, I told myself, “was a bad day,”

I was sitting on a small metal bench situated in the corner of my backyard that faced my house. Inside I could see my daughters playing at the kitchen table.

The last couple of weeks had been rough, but at least I was recovering …

“Or at least I thought I was….”, I grumbled while staring at my catheter bag. 

At least the weird chills and fever had diminished. Initially, I was a little concerned that I might have contracted the Coronavirus, but the symptoms had disappeared as fast as they had come on. 

“And I haven’t been around anyone other than my family”, I reassured myself.

And then it dawned on me. It was probably the two tablets of Bactrim, an antibiotic, that were prescribed to me on the day that my catheter was to be removed. The timing was perfect. I’d have to take the same antibiotic again for the next catheter removal attempt. If I got the same symptoms again I’d know for sure.

“If the catheter comes out…”, I said to myself.

And then it was everything all at once. 

Prostatitis. 

Cancer. 

Hormone Therapy. 

Coronavirus. 

Surgery.

Pain. 

Swelling.

Catheter Fail.

“Are you okay?”, Jodie asked me.  

I looked up and turned to see that Jodie was sitting beside me. I wiped the tears from my eyes and took a deep breath before replying.

“Yeah. Yeah, I’ll be okay”, I said, “It’s just been too much. I think I’ve been trying to do too much. I’ve been trying to keep everything from falling apart when, in fact, the only thing falling apart was me.”

“I think it’s the … hormone therapy. It screws with my emotions”, I lied. 

Jodie smiled and nodded. She wasn’t buying it, but was pretending to nonetheless. The kids, at this point, had joined us on the small bench.

“Dad, are you crying? Are you okay?”, Ashley asked me.

“Is Daddy going to be okay?”, Kaylee asked Jodie.

I took a deep breath, wiped off the rest of my tears on the sleeve of my bathrobe, looked up at my kids, and did my best to smile.

“Yeah. Yeah, I’m going to be okay. Everything is going to be fine. It’s just been a rough few days. I think I’ve been trying to do too much.”, I confided.

They looked at me with concern. I grabbed each of their hands and gave them a tight squeeze.

“Everything is going to be okay, I promise!”, I emphasized.

And it would be, too. I’d make sure of it. Over the next few days leading up to my follow up appointment I was going to do the impossible – I was going to do as little as possible.

Pop the Cork

My chills returned shortly after downing one of two Bactrim tablets that were prescribed to me for my followup appointment. The chills, as expected, progressed throughout the day into the same symptoms I had at my last appointment. Next time I met with my oncologist I’d let him know, in the meantime it was time to get my catheter removed – for real this time.

Just like last time we set the kids up on the couch, surrounded them with electronic devices, and set them up on a Zoom Conference. The drive to UCSD was a quick endeavor as well; with everyone confined to their houses there was, just like on our last trip, absolutely no traffic.

For round two I had a different nurse, an older jovial lady that I couldn’t help but like.

“Okay, ready? I’ll need you to lie down and pull down your pants.”, the nurse told me.

“But, we just met!”, I joked.

She laughed and got down to business.

The process of removing a catheter was a bit of a surprise. They literally pump you full of 250mL of saline, pull the catheter, and have you pee it all out. 250ml is uncomfortable after having an empty bladder for almost two weeks. It was delivered through five syringes – I know because I counted each and every one. 

The catheter itself popped out with a flash of pain, followed by ( you guessed it ) 250mL of saline. It was a messy affair. I immediately tugged on a diaper, which caused me to dribble a little bit, followed by my shoes which caused me to  dribble a little more.

I looked up at the nurse with a slightly disgusted look.

She told me that having a catheter had weakened my pelvic muscles. The dribbling would subside over time as my pelvic muscles strengthened and that I would need to do exercises, called Kegels, to help strengthen them.

I managed a smile, and then slowly, the smile got bigger. A huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I had healed enough to begin the next steps in my recovery and, hopefully, dealt my cancer a blow from which it would never recover. 

Jodie and I left the exam room, found our car in the parking lot, merged onto the 56 East, and headed home to rejoin the girls at home. 

I didn’t dribble the entire way.

Take care. Stay healthy. Live life. And thank you for your support.

-Scott

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7 thoughts on “Recovering from Surgery

  1. Wow! Knew it was painful but never realized all you went through. I am sooooo glad you’re feeling better now as I read this. Mom

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  2. Man.. you are my hero. I’m home having breakdowns dealing with 1% of the challenges that you are facing. You are crushing it my friend! Thanks for sharing and inspiring.

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  3. Thanks for sharing. I like you writing style. Good luck with the recovery. It is a testing time, but hopefully this will soon be a distant memory. Cheers, Phil

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